I love it in Numbers 11:10-15 when Moses is basically telling God, “Listen, I can’t take any more of these people. Did I give birth to them? No. Yet for some reason you’ve made them my responsibility, burdening me with them. I have a favor to ask you. If you care about me, would you please just kill me now?” God didn’t kill him then. But God did give Moses what he needed to carry on the work God had for him.
I can’t imagine anyone in their right mind wanting to be a pastor. While it can be one of the easiest jobs in the world if you don’t really care, it can be very frustrating if you do. If you have a burden for the lost, if you want to see “Christians” love Jesus more and more, and if you want to see the people who are the church get along with each other and other churches, it can be heart-breaking. Most of us can’t get over being self-centered and indifferent. Moses was even being self-centered when he was asking God to kill him!
In Joy, The Secret of Being Content (which I obviously haven’t finished), Celeste Perrino Walker talks about Abraham obeying and going, even though he didn’t know where he was going. And she said it wasn’t because he just got up one day and decided he wanted a challenge, or because he was trying to make a statement, or he had a bunch of energy from eating Wheaties for breakfast. He was simply obeying.
Obedience to God is why Moses led the people out of Egypt and into the wilderness. Obedience is why Abraham lived in tents, not knowing exactly where he was going. Obedience is the only reason someone should be a pastor. Obedience is rarely easy, but there’s no other way to live. And if we’re obedient, God will equip us with what is needed to do the task He has for us, even if what we need is patience with His people. Maybe some of you need to pray for patience with me?